By Jessica Golich
The beloved Brooklyn-based hip-hop guardian spirit originating out of Cleveland, Ohio has indeed shocked his distinctly dedicated fan base by exploring a new experimental approach throughout the emotive release of his fifth studio album, ‘Speedin Bullet 2 Heaven’. Kid Cudi lit up intergalactic hearts and pipes jam-packed with maui wowie the moment lonely stoners began to free their minds at night over the hypnotic sounds of Cudi’s 2008 first full length studio album release, ‘Man on the Moon: The End of Day’, which exhibited a Billboard Hot 100 single that cut the first turf along the field of dreams for a seemingly supernatural egghead.
The skinny jeans, vans kicks and wayfarer glasses wearin’ earth dweller instantaneously astonished flannel rockin’ hipsters dreaming life away and flocking like a swarm of bees toward the simultaneous melancholic conscious tip and idyllic album themes brimming with ethereal dreams swarming within the medulla of a man who progressively matured in the thick of his craft.
The dark mind of Scott Mescudi expressed that ‘Speedin’ Bullet 2 Heaven’ was dedicated to human beings undergoing excruciating distress due to the pangs of mental illness, but the unequivocally explicative album travels down the hallways of Mr. Mescudi’s distressed mind in a manner that showcases the downside of superstardom in an such a bare-faced, introspective manner that has left Cudi’s cult-like following pondering if the great breadth of the man on the moon’s view has taken on an eternally gloomy hue.
Despite the obvious fact that the troubled boy with the heart of a lion is no longer looking high and low along on the pursuit of happiness, it is imperative that dogmatic fans wake their minds up and acknowledge the considerable personal accountability on Cudi’s end throughout the exposition of his innermost, sinister troubles currently trapped within his being along rugged, unexplored rhythmical terrain. Kid Cudi is gazing beyond the perimeter of commercial success, common sequels and his double-dealing alleged equals; respect that.
On October 4th, 2016, Kid Cudi released the statement below over his Facebook page….
“Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans. Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges. I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this. I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery. If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs. Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry.
I love you,
The acute distress that led Cudi to releasing this statement is real and showcases how isolating fame and fortune can lead an individual to feel. Emphasizing with the musical genius’ current situation is inevitable and the battle of facing depression, isolation, disconnection, loneliness and suicidal thoughts/ideation in the face of the spotlight is twice the fight; Scott Mescudi’s music has helped many human beings acknowledge their dreams and feigns sew up their seams. Kid Cudi has chosen to communicate his pain directly, openly, lucidly and clearly. The power of vulnerability is so fucking underrated. And Kid Cudi showcasing that he is a fighter while laying bare his true, flawed, jaded, emotionally unstable, and mentally afflicted being awakens the reality of humanness that sprouts from diving into your inner abyss. Get well soon.